A Lot of "Maybes" in My Mind

Labor Day was yesterday, and it was a gorgeous day.  My husband and I had a day off together and had a wonderful time.  One thing we did was go to an art fair.  Seeing so many unique artworks felt very inspiring.  Being in that type of environment gives me motivation to try new things.  There are some talents that I would like to try and hone, but I always feel like I don't have the time or the finances to pursue them.  For instance, I love the piano.  My grandmother taught herself how to play the piano, and she was the organist at our church when I was growing up.  I remember sitting at her piano and teaching myself how to play some songs by ear.  I would only use one finger at a time, but I felt so accomplished when I could play a whole chorus of a song!  Yesterday, I was at my father-in-law's house for a bit, and I sat at the piano.  Again, I played a song I taught myself, and it made me feel so good inside.  I am seriously considering looking into learning how to play.  I would have to start at square one because I don't even know how to read music.  I decided to put this in my blog so that I can somewhat hold myself accountable for at least doing research on it.  I can talk or even just think about it for days and days, but actually looking into it is a different story.  Usually when I learn a new thing, I like to be the best at it.  I know this is very unrealistic, but I get very frustrated when I am in the learning process of something and I need a lot of help with it.  With this thought of wanting to learn how to play the piano, I feel like I would be okay with being a beginner... even excited. I am now feeling more anxiety about actually calling a perfect stranger and asking them to help me.  When I start feeling anxious about something like this, these questions pop up in my head:  "What if I don't gel with them?"  "What if I end up hating it and have to tell them I don't want to do it anymore?"  I have to remember when these type of questions come up that it's not me talking, it's my anxiety talking.  When the time feels right, I hope I'll have the courage to pursue it.

I also have some other crafty artsy ideas that I would like to pursue, but I have a hard time when I do something and it doesn't look exactly like I want it to (aka "I am a perfectionist").  This is something I need to just jump in, try it, and get over the fact that I'm not Leonardo da Vinci. 

How exciting and scary it can be to learn new things.  I shall keep you posted.

Happy Tuesday to you and yours...